No new Nightmares just another day!

    So I haven't had any more nightmares, not that my day aren't filled with fear and anxiety. I woke up last Saturday night with my new graft clotted only after 2 weeks of being in my arm. After speaking with the Doc he informs me that it can wait till Monday to be dealt with. Monday I go to the hospital wait to be fit in the schedule for a same day procedure. As I sat in the lobby of the hospital alone the fear of the unknown slowly creep-ed in to my mind. Not knowing if they could fix my arm let alone how they were going to do it. By 10am I was finely in a room waiting for them to come get me for the procedure. After yawning all morning the comfort of a hospital bed was a welcoming feeling. While enjoying my sweet escape to La La Land I felt a hand on my shoulder trying to wake me. The nurse informed me they would be here in a couple of mins to take me down to surgery. Quickly those feeling of fear and anxiety came rushing back. Once in the operating room I could feel the rush of the staff prepping. After about 30 mins it was all over and I realized I had been worrying for nothing. Very little pain and a working graft I was on my way to a better day.
     I still have other things with my health to deal with this week. Thursday I will be going to New Orleans for an evaluation to be on Ochsner's transplant list as well as discussing removal on old transplant kidney. But all things said I have plenty of Faith and Hope for better day to come. With the Love and support of  Family and Friends I know my Life is cherished and Loved. Thank you to those who have verbalized it.