Now you know I mean it.

      So I haven't written on my blog in a while, not that I didn't want to. The last six months of this year have been filled with nothing but problems and stress. And has I've always tried to put up a good front to all my friends and family that I can handle anything, these struggles have tested me mentally and physically more than ever before. I've always told my family and friends that if it weren't for Faith and Courage I don't know if I could make it through some of these things. 17 years off and on of dialysis is hard enough and that's just the tip of the ice berg. When you repeat the same saying over and over it really does feel true. So has the years have passed and my health has been tried I have had to look Faith and Courage to take the next steps forward in this battle. But saying it was no longing enough, I needed a new source of renewal. Months ago I had contemplated having those to special words tattooed on my feet. Time passed and still I had not gotten the tattoos. Although, a lack of money was the main reason, a fear of pain didn't help. So has the holidays approached I was asked to dog watch for a friend and was offered $200 for a week of dog sitter. This offer finally gave me the extra money I needed for my tattoos. There was no doubt I was going to do it, but I suddenly wanted to change where I got it. Already having 3 tattoos I can't (back and outside ankle) or don't see very often, I now wanted to wear these tattoos loud and proud. A small part of me feels I've earned them. Now that they are done I love them more and more everyday.

All in all I'm looking forward to 2013 and a life a little less stressful.